Question

I have a question. This isnt really a blog. I use to be pretty strong. I never really cried over things. I use to be able to keep it together so to speak. Say if someone died. I wouldnt cry in fron of anyone. I would wait till i was *behind closed doors* and release whatever it was i was bottling up. You would think that after all these years i would be this mile high, mile thick,brick wall. Nothing gets in. Nothing gets out. but its the total opposite! I cry over everything. I'm such a basket case. One day i went over my friends house because i couldnt stop crying and i literally sat there crying on her shoulder! Thats not me. she even said it was weird seeing me like that because thats not me. What's going on. When you get older do you get more weak? And sorry if this comment offends, its just that i always looked at letting your guard down or even crying as being weak. Actually just in my case. Case in point. If i saw one of my sisters crying, that wouldnt be weak in my eyes. Just them releasing emotions. But if i cry i dont like it. I feel like i let people down because i didnt keep it together. Is it just me? I'm confused. i think this Nonblog turned into one